Quiet, happy day

Yikes, I realised today that it's half way through the month and I am not whizzing down the weight scales as fast as I had hoped. However, onward ever onward.

I had a good lie in this morning followed by a bowl of muesli and yoghurt, church, an uninterrupted read of the papers with a cup of coffee, lunch, a long walk, washing, homework (the girls), Antiques Roadshow and then, hardly dare admit it, "I'm A Celebrity - Get Me Out Of Here" - I, of course, wouldn't watch such inane rubbish but the girls like it.......!

My diet has been superb today, making up for the Christmas dinner yesterday. For lunch, as there were no children in the house, I had cooked a mince pie with homemade chips and mushy peas for my partner (he LOVES it) and I had some roast vegetables with spiced red cabbage and mushy peas. I gave him his plate and then sat down with mine. He starts doing a "weather warning" of severe gales expected to be moving in from the North - cheeky devil! As if mushy peas, cabbage, beetroot, squash etc are going to have that effect!?!

I had a fantastic walk today. The normal route round the gill with Lucy but consciously as fast as I could. To be honest, my feet just worked on automatic as my mind was whirring at an even faster rate than usual. I was thinking of ways of making some much needed money before the fast approaching festive season. As my partner sells Christmas trees, ("Bruces' Spruces" - no, not really, but I think it's a great name) I could make log Rudolph's, papier mache robins and Christmas decorations to sell along side them. Could be alot of mess for not alot of return, but we shall see. So, plan for extra pennies sorted. Next, I thought about potential employment. I keep saying that I want my career to mean something, to do something that makes a difference. Anyway, when analysing my ideal job, I have been trying think what would give job satisfaction. I think I have concluded that this either means working for a charity, ideally Marie Curie as a fundraising co-ordinator; working with children with "challenges" (I would love to be a foster Mum if we a) had room or b) thought the girls wouldn't mind); be a life coach boosting people's self esteem or teaching people proper, basic skills of cooking. I want to make a difference to someone's life and, in doing so, enrich my own. So, I have concluded that I should settle for not having much money for the time being by sticking with the job I have (which I thoroughly enjoy for the most part, it just doesn't have enough hours for 10 months of the year and has twice as many as I want for 2 months of the year) while I find a way to achieve a job that I really want.

Is it possible to boost someone's self esteem if you are prone to ludicrously low self esteem yourself?

In conclusion, I have made some mental progress today. Tomorrow I am going to write an article about the personal side of business insolvency and see if I can get it published. Now that's positive isn't it?

I feel a good week coming on.

E x